SHE.HER.

woahh.. i am so terrible.. nxt wk is my major exam and i still cn play games.. am i slack?? worried worried but nvr study.. OMG.. my brain is totally restless rite nw. if i look at d bks also, what i study cannot go into my brain..

i scared and worried that d exam will be difficult and i cannot do it.

ya allah,
help me please
plz wake me up before its too late

TDY TASK:

EAT

SLEEP

WATCH TV

STUDY FOR EXAM

waktu bergulir lambat

merantai langkah perjalanan kita

berjuta cerita terukir dalam

menjadi sebuah dilema

mengertikah engkau

perasaanku tak terhapuskan

malam menangis

tetes embun membasahi mata hatiku

mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing

cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam

tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

reff:

aku terlanjur cinta kepadamu

dan tlah ku berikan seluruh hatiku

tapi mengapa baru kini kau pertanyakan cintaku

aku pun tk mengerti yang terjadi

apa salah dan kurang ku padamu

kini terlambat sudah untuk dipersalahkan

karna skali cinta, aku tetap cinta

mencoba bertahan di atas puing-puing

cinta yang tlah rapuh

apa yang ku genggam

tak mudah untuk aku lepaskan

repeat reff

LOVE THIS SONG. IT IS SO MEANIGNFUL. IF U WANT TO KNW, THIS SONG IS WHAT IM FACING RITE NW

Cinta adalah sesuatu yang didambakan oleh manusia.

Cinta yang murni berlandaskan ajaran agama membawa manusia ke arah kebahagiaan.

Cinta yang nafsu pun boleh membawa manusia ke lorong kehancuran.

Namun cinta yang datang itu adalah anugerah Ilahi yang menguji keimanan manusia.

yesterday irene and i were the first time conduct a meeting with all librarians. i thought i able to manage it but in the end i can't. it was totally a disaster, nightmare and worst meeting i ever faced. it was out of control that i couldn't manage it by myself. d presentation took 25 mins i think and there was a lot of time but i don't knw what to do with them.. cut short after we used our contigency plan, at least it works even though some of the member did not co operate with us. supposingly celebrate with feb babies must be at 4 latest 430 pm. strike 4+, we then celebrate and i thought there were no problem cme but there's another prblm. there's no drink for them. i was like OMG.. worst nightmare ever. actually there's a drink in the cupboard but Daniel didn't manage to get the key as we don't know where's the key. so poor that they use plastic bowl to drink..

hpefully for d next mtg will be a cherish meeting.

currently at WFB lesson at computer lab.. as usual cme skool straight go to library to do my duty. 2 wks more to EXAM man.. ohh myy goodness.. it was sooo damn fast.. do u think i able to memorise all d units in BFS textbk for 1 wk?? oh gosh.. im stresss man... urghh.. ok wateva it is, i must keep calm and hopefully d exam is easy and i able to memorise everthg in 2 wks.. amin..

my brain is mess with IAC of all d topics that i learnt and i was totally FORGOT how to do for d previous unit.. OMG.. hw man?? hw ?? hw ??

aiyo.. don knw leh.. im confused and what im doing nw is i am not me right nw.. my body is at the real world but my brain is at LALA land.. wake up qilah!!! wake up!!!!..

exam is cmg and u still dreaming.. aiyo..

currently busy with my skool and preparation for my EXAM

BUSY WITH MY:

EXAM

LIBRARY

BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY BUSY

anythg just beep me oritez.. :)

toodles (",)

in d morning go skool till afternoon and luckily my sw teacher was soo gd that he let us went off earlier.mark attendance and went off. took bus 31 to tamp and took 969 to ys while radin board at wdland. through d whole journey, we talk alot.. gt topic to talk mah.. so we talk talk and talk till reach ys..
at night, online for awhile if there is any update..
i also dont knw why..d moment i see d update abt our mates gatherinG, i was nt in a mood to study. i was soo STUPID that i say to everyone that "our outing is cancel".. haiya.. why i was so so so stupid at that time?? if i cn turn bck d clock, i will correct my mistake. supposingly is postponed.. aiyo don knw la.. hw am i going to face to all my mates just bcs of this minor mistakes that i had done..

HOPEFULLY THEY ARE NOT ANGRY WITH ME :)

to my dear mates
i would like to apologise if there is any mistake which i had done and hurt ur feeling..

I AM SO SORRY

tdy in d afternoon my family and i went to sembawang shopping centre to buy things. after that went to NP to buy my sis things.. after that went hme.. rest and take a bite.. after that online and discuss with irene abt this cmg fri mtg..
EXAM IS COMING ABT 2 WKS.. wow.. that was soooo FAST..
hmm kluh.. ntg to say much..

will update again
toodles :)

im speechless

no words to say

sad and dissapointed

my heart breaks into pieces

dont wanna say anymore

whatever

don't push ur relationship with a person too hard. if it is meant to be then it will happen.

ya allah.. please help me to forget him..i cant stand it anymore.as d days pass by, my mind is always thinking of him and i really2 miss him. missing him is killing me.. please help me for my own good.. d more i try to forget him, d more he appears in my mind.

to my dear aqilah,

u can forget him. u must try.

i knw u cn forgt him.

EXAM IS COMING LA DEH..

CONCENTRATE LAR.. AIYO

PPLE GO SKOOL TO STUDY NOT LOVE2

HAIYA U AR

WANNA SMACK IS IT??

WHERE IS UR OLD U??

I WANT UR OLD U WHICH U HAD SUCCESS

MAINTAIN UR SUCCESS BEB

I KNW U ARE CLEVER BUT DONT BCS OF THIS, IT AFFECT UR STUDIES..

U HAVE FRENZ AND FAMILY HERE

THEY WILL ALWAYS TAKE CARE AND LOVE YOU

ALLAH ALWAYS LOVE U

THERE'S NO REASON FOR U TO SAY "NOBODY LOVES U"

D WORD "LOVE"

IT DOESN'T MEAN THAT SHOULD NEED SOMEONE SPECIAL TO SAY

"I LOVE U"

FAMILY AND FRENZ ALSO SAY LIKE THAT WHAT..

THINK POSTIVE KAE..

ONE DAY SOMEONE THAT U WANT WILL STAND RIGHT INFRONT OF U

AS WHAT THE PREVIOUS QUOTE SAY:

"IF IT IS MEANT TO BE, IT WILL HAPPEN"

currently in skool having WFB class in comp lab..in d morning reach skool went to d library to do my duty..after check d bkdrop and all those stuff, nothing to do went to the discovery room to wrap bks.. sat in d room alone wrapping bks and arrange it.. when i enter d room, it was so quiet.. alot of sweet memories in that room that i cn still remember. d precious moment which i will not forget was when we all gather in d room, sat and wrap bks together.. make jokes, laugh here laugh there. during skool holiday, we went to d library together, help each other and spend most of the time in d library. d sweetest memory was when jacq and cai feng gve me a bdae suprise.. i was so touched with present that they gave me.. when i miss them i read a bdae letter frm them.. my heart is crying.. aww..

kk wateva it is, i must learn to be independent..

ok lor till here then..
toodles :)

once in a while be emo and express myself.. haha

tdy go skool after that go bck hme.. saw ariff and yuz in skool so we chit chat for awhile.. took bus hme skali saw d 2 of them took tke d same bus as me.. board d bus at d same stop and they suggest to me to follow them walk ard n chit chat while waiting for my sis to reach ys. as we tke escalator to go mcD, we saw Laila.. it was so suprising as we didn't saw each other for almost 2 yrs and 2 months.. wow.. that was soo long.. hmm as d days past by, she look more prettier haha.. kk cut short.. after chit chat, stand outside mcD as they waiting for their frenz.. abt 30 mins later, i say bye2 to them and met my sis outside cold storage just to buy Pocari Sweat drink. after that went hme and guess what??
my mom baked muffin..hmmmm frm outside my sis and i can smell d delicias muffin.. OMG.. i straight away taste d muffin.. cannot tahan already and i felt hungry that time so what am i waiting for ?? mkn uh.. aiya.. hahaha..

anw latest update, tdy outing with my sec frenz was cancelled as we hve less than 10 pple cme.. boring sia.. only less people cme.. as when im in skool, i saw ariff, so he decide to re-organize d event.. hope this cmg event will be a success one and Hopefully everybody cn mke it and hve fun.. Amin..

ok lor till here then.
toodles

the worst way to miss someone is when they are right beside u

and

yet u knw u cn nvr hve them

tdy im all alone in d hse.. study iac, check fcebk is there any updates for d outing..

love this song : tuhan tolong

chorus: "oh tuhan tolong lah aku. jangan lah kau biarkan diriku. jatuh cinta kepadanya. stlah andai itu terjadi, akan ada hati yang terluka. tuhan tolong diriku."

dlm hidup ini kita tk perlu terlalu menhgarapkan apa apa pn dr sesiapa. kalau perkara itu memang sudah tertulis buat diri kita, kita harus menerimanya dgn tenang dn memulakan penghidupan yg baru. walaupun smua yg tlah berlaku itu amat sukar dn berat sekali

FINAL EXAM IS COMING.. OHHH NOO!! I HAVENT PREPARE ANYTHG.. IT WAS SOOOO FAST..

tdy meet up with yumie at tampines interchange to tke pic of her project.. went to the century square mall find a place to sit as well as tke pic of her project.. at last we found d place which is really suitable and comfortable to sit as there was a sofa and table provided near customer service. the mall was so quiet.. woohooo.. apa lagi.. relek as we wish uh.. sing a song, cn do what we want.. COOL.. after took d pic, we went to the mcD ate ice-cream. i buy vanilla cone which cost $0.70 as yumie, she bought sundae and apple pie.. after eat and chit chat, we decided to lepak for awhile at Tamp 1.. walk around, leg condemned ready, we went hme lor..
we go separate ways.. i took bus as she took train. reach doorstep, rest for awhile, eat lunch then perform my prayers. after that email d pic to yumie that i took just nw..

till here then..
toodles :)

yesterday evening met radin at BB interchange, took bus and went to her house to bake brownie cake for special occasion which is quite meaningful for my beloved fren here.. we helped each other to bake a cake and in the end, the cake was really attempting.. IT WAS SOOOO DELICIAS. glad to hear positive comment frm her family members.. tnks HAHA..
GD JOB for both of us.. WE HAD SUCCESSFULLY MADE A DELICIAS CAKE..
will not forgt d precious memories that we had spent time yesterday.. it was totally FUN, EXCITING, NO REGRET, STILL GT TIME TO MAKE JOKES HAHAHAHA..
d time that i wont forget was d preparation to make a cake..
kecoh beb hahakz..

overall, i would like to say GREAT JOB even though it was d first time we had done this together @ NIGHT !! HAHA..

ok lor till here then.. ALAMAK.. forget to tke pic frm her.. aiyo..

yesterday after skool, i had exco mtg in d lib.. d mtg was very IMPORTANT.. during d mtg, we need to start fresh. sme of them, d position was same but sme of them, they nd to change including me.. OMG.. it seems i hve to try first bcme a leader. it sounds cool but d task and responsibilty are heavy for me and im afraid that i didnt manage to handle.. after d mtg, we helped each other to wrap bks. in d evening, i met my mom and my sis at banquet that was located at NP.. we ate dinner there, went popular to buy stationery after that went hme..

yesterday after skool went to d lib mtg which is very IMPORTANT.. during d mtg, mgr talk to us after that its time to vote for d nxt chairperson and d result is ME.. they chose me. OMG.. anw tnx everyone for d vote..appreciate it alot. i just gve it a try

YESTERDAY

after skool, i and radin went to sheng siong at wdland to buy ingredients n we need to go to the red man at amk as d ingredient n things that we need are not enough. took train to amk, walk2 at last reach d shop. finally d ingredient we need was bought. yesterday we mke a lot of jokes, laugh here laugh there n we talk alot HAHA..

INGREDIENTS AND EQUIPMENT THAT WE HAD BOUGHT

YESTERDAY

after school go bugis with radin. i'm finding shirts as for her, she's finding a dress. it was sooo complicated n confusing on the shirts/dress which are suitable for us. after 3 hrs at bugis, rounding to the same shop and i don't knw hw many times we passed the shops..at last we saw a shop that sold shirts which i wanna buy n i bought it. as for radin, we stop another shop n she bought her dress. after bought our things, felt hungry and we ate at LJS.. full oready then go hme lor.. d next day skool mah.. TIRING ..

TODAY

tdy nothing much.. go skool then go hme.. tired..wanna rest. trmw nd to go shopping with radin..wanna buy food..wuhhuu..cant wait..

till here then..will update again..

YESTERDAY

Went to d handicapped place where other students (which i don't really knw them), my frenz and i do activity that is called DINING IN THE DARK. actually this activity is for us to knw hw the blind people felt when they can't see anything. so this is my opportunity to try and feel hw it was like. cut short

arrive at the building, the person in charge cme and brief us what to do during the activity and etc. when i enter d darkest room which i myself can't see, i felt like i was not in this world..u know what i mean.

OVERALL

fun

exciting

enjoyable

learn new experience

wanna do that activity again (free mkn mah haha.who want to reject LOL)

NO REGRET

at night, went out to NP with my mom and my sis to buy things and ate dinner at mcD.

tdy went to skool in d morning study iac after that sve then wfb..after skool go mkn then go lib to practice roleplay for an hour.. after that i need to go to d library course that was conducted in d skool lib.. d session was from 2pm to 5pm..

at first was quite bored after that ard in d evening, we need to design a poster which was i like d most.. i love that part.. INTERESTING AND FUN..

woah my frenz was so noisy like at d market haha but their noise entertain us.. COOL!!

we need to separate into 2 groups..

group 1

jacqueline

ivonne

irene

nabilla

group 2

cai feng

nata

boon siong

joelle

after that we need to present a bit, took photo and place at d new arrival books..

finish product that was done by my group

NICE??

haha ok lor till here then ..very tired.. tmrw is dining in d dark.. YAHHUUU.. can't wait..

dear to all my beloved frenz

im aqilah will like to say that I LOVE U ALL.. i really2 appreciate the friendship and precious moment during school times that we had together.

i will not forget the memories during school time with tears and laughter.

you all are always in my heart.

Muackzz..

anything just text me oritez..

tdy in d morning go skool till afternoon.after skool stay bck till evening as i need to see mr ong for d advice abt d exemption and also practice roleplay with yumie. for ca2.radin follow us as she gt ntg to do.. tnk u sooo much radin for waiting us hahakz..
after that took bus 31 to tamp then 969.. walk walk walk walk reach doorstep and say "assalamualaikum".. sat dwn rest for awhile, eat n watch tv..da da di du di da perform my prayers then go to sleep..

gdnite :)

updates for tdy..

tdy in d morning go skool but late for 1 and half hour..study iac for just 20 mins haha.. enter d room sat on the chair and found out new shocking story.. my fren, mas says that "for those progression student who already took CRN (customer relation) and had grade A, no need to do SVE" i was like WTH, this teacher..hmm but he said that he knew this matter tdy so understandable..
this is d last CA which CA2 and i was knew that i no need to tke SVE.. aiya nvm.. cn learn mah.. don be LAZY BUM hahakz.. d journey and sacrifice which i and yumie had done was a great moment. through our efforts, we are able to communicate and jokes ard.. NO REGRET..
after wfb lesson then go to tamp central accompany radin to buy her things then go mc donald ate ice cream after that go hme..

ok lor till here then..
will update again..
toodles..

tdy onwards, i want to be HAPPY.. i don care abt him anymore..
waste my tears and tired of living like this..
thank u so much my dearest buddy, my frenz and my lovely sister that always cheer me up.. :)
LOVE U ALL..Muackkzz

hie..

updates for tdy

went skool in d morning till in the evening after that went to tampines mall ate at Long John Silver with radin.. Cool!! HAHA.. after that go home..

reach home do SVE cA2 SCRIPT and that was a very tight as tmrw i need Mr Ong to look through my script before practice for our roleplay..

i and yumie was stress out.. OMG.. left 5 days before d actual roleplay..

fri and sat im not free.. so left wed and thurs..

hope gt enough time to practice.. im so worried...

haiz..

ok lor till here then..

gonna finish this script soon...

will update again

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tnx for hurting me all this while.. really appreciate it alot