SHE.HER.

tdy is my result.. i was so shocked and it is not my expectation..
i felt :

- sad :(
- dissapointed :(
- regret :(

i drop 0.5 for my gpa.. i worried that it will become worse for the next yr .. regret nw also no use. cry till bleeding also no use.. it will nvr change my grades.. mybe i lack of study and focus more on library..
nxt time i need to wrk extra hard to gain my grades.. hpefully this yr result is to my satisfaction.. amin..

currently in skool library do wrapping while play games and do blog haha.. still got time to play ar.. at 1pm, go lunch.. i feel hungry rite nw.. ntg to say much..

oh MAN!!! 2 more days left to my result.. i wonder how it looks like.. hmmm

okae readers.. will update again..

so sad that on d 2nd april, one of my fren will stay at oversea i think.. so fast she wanna go.. haiz..

just nw in d evening went out with my parents to buy things behind ys interchange. after that went to watson then hme swt hme..

cant wait for mon bcs i cn see jacq and cai feng.. YIPPEE!!! cant wait to see them again.. MISS THEM ALOT..

tdy nothing much.. 1 whole day at hme rest.. my body is aching here and there, lazy to go out and got so many things to settle.. jialat man..

okae readers. just wanna tell u that i LOVE this song VERY MUCH.. tnx to d camera adevrtisement and jacq..

INNOCENCE

Waking up i see that everything is okay
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down i look around and i am so amazed
i think about the little things that make life great

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect, please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

i found a place so safe, not a single tear
the first time in my life and now it's so clear
feel calm i belong, im so happy here
it's so strong and now i let myself be sincere

i wouldn't change a thing about it
this is the best feeling

this innocence is brilliant, i hope that it will stay
this moment is perfect, please don't go away
i need you now
and i'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

it's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming
it's the happiness inside that you're feeling
it's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry
it's so beautiful, it makes you wanna cry

this innocence is brilliant, it makes you want to cry
this innocence is brilliant, please don't go away
'cause i need you now
and i'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

this innocence is brilliant, it's so beautiful, it's so beautiful
this moment is perfect, please don't go away
i need you now, it makes me want to cry
and i'll hold on to it, don't you let it pass you by

- 9.30 reach skool's lib and straight away went in d training room to do ppt

- 12pm went lunch with ivonne, irene and nata. ate chicken briyani

- 1pm be ready for the meeting

- 2.30pm meeting started

- 4.30pm celebrate march babies

-5.30pm hme swt hme

tdy list :

- 10.45am reach skool's lib and start work

- 1pm lunch

- 1.30pm went bck to d lib again to continue

- 6pm went hme

- 7.15pm reach my doorstep

in d morning went to skool library

- 12pm : ate lunch at cafe 1 with ivonne, irene, tracy, serene and emily. after that nata came n join us

- 1pm : prepare for d exco mtg

- ard 2.30pm : meeting ends and hve a bit of discussion with ivonne n bla bla bla

- 4+ pm : do d processing of new bks

- 6pm : hme swt hme

currently spent time with my new blog skin..edit here and there and here we are.. I AM SOO HAPPY WITH MY NEWEST blog..tnks alot to my sis who had helped me all this while.. tnx sis :D

as d days pass by, i feel i want to patch him bck but since he is not d old him and he want smethg which i hate d most..THINK TWICE !!!!

i think its d best for me to forget him and start a brand new green leaf and guess what?? i saw this person that carried a parrot which i saw him in d zoo yesterday. omg.. he is so cute with his spectacle and quite handsome too hahakz.. d first time i saw him, my heart melt like a cheese in d hot pan.. when i saw him, i just stare at him without a blink on my eyes and i accidentally smile at him bcs i was smiling when jacq and cai feng mke jokes infront of me.. haha what a heaven hahakz.. kk whateva it is, im glad to be single :)

k then
tke cre readers..

today is Monday and we go SPORE ZOOLOGICAL GARDEN

- met jacq and cai feng @ tamp interchange to buy some snacks for d outing

- time strike 11 am and we head to LJS to eat our lunch

- as d time strike 12pm, we took taxi as we need to reach skool before 12.15 but i didnt cme out any cents hahakz.. tnk u sis :D

- reach skool, straight away go to library for awhile and guess what ?? i need to INTERVIEW sia.. oh gosh.. i was didnt prepare anythg and suddenly need to interview.. aiya.wanna run away but cannot so ya..just interview lor with mr ismail's CAMERA. use camera sme more..

- after that, wait n wait n wait for d teacher ic to cme, we sat on d sofa and lepak.

- few mins later, d teacher ic cme and we head to event hall where we need to gather

- collect refundable, mark attendance, relek one corner n wait, wait n wait till i don knw whom we are waiting for and at last, we can board d bus

- reach zoo, we need to wait another 2 grp to cme as we are d grp 1.

- then we head to auditorium . listen to d presentation bla bla bla

- we went to the room which is d exhibition, hospital and dead animal room

- after jalan-jalan, we 3 walk walk ard d zoo to see d animal as well as tke a pic of it.

- plan wanna go and see lion but d time is totally short, so we decided to go nearby only.. aiya so sad but nvm still hve a chance to go but don knw when hahakz..

so this is d pic that i had captured so far

was taken in the auditorium

the first pic was taken outside the hospital
the rest of d pic was taken in the exhibition

sorie if d pic is abit messy..

just nw watch 3 video frm jacq.. it was damn funny.. i love it.. i was laughing non-stop.. hahahaha.. omg
i didnt knw that d video mkes me entertain.. tnx jacq :)
if i cn recall bck, that was d funniest video i ever seen.. i love d first 2 video..
i LAUGH N LAUGH N LAUGH N LAUGH N LAUGH.. till my sis watch d video, she also laugh haha..

out of 100, i rate this 100 .. *thumbs up*

FRIDAY

- Met cai feng at ys platform

- went together and met jacq, irene, ivonne n boon siong at somerset

- ate lunch at KFC

- went to k box to sing song

i sang bad romance, , elegi sepi, my heart, what about nw and russian roulette.

- lepak at a small playground located at level 9, i think haha

- took pic and play true and dare while waiting for serene to join us

- after serene reach ready, d time strike 8pm.

- we ate dinner at KFC again..

yesterday was a ZINGER BURGER MEAL DAY hahahakz.. u knw why ??

bcs lunch and dinner, i ate the same meal haha :)

a small caption frm d area which we lepak..

THURSDAY

- went to changi with my family to attend a ceremony

- took bus 858 and alight at terminal 2

- after d ceremony, we had a refreshment

- after that, hme swt hme

a small caption frm d refreshment :

ate mee hoon with fish ball and small pizza ( which is nt in d pic bcs i ate it already haha)

WEDNESDAY

- met cai feng in d train itself and went to the cineleisure

- met jacq at somerset platform

- ate lunch at KFC

- we 3 took neoprint together (jacq and cai feng treat me :D) tnk u so much sis

- bought movie ticket

- d time strike 2.50 pm, we went inside d cinema and watch DEAR JOHN

- after cinema, we jalan-jalan at 313

- hme swt hme

hie hie hie.. sorie long time didnt update.. okae readers.. nw im going to tell u a story frm tues till fri + Saturday

TUESDAY

- in d morning went to skool library for awhile

- in d afternoon after i had lunch with cai feng and nata at skool, i went bck hme
- in d evening, went to Northpoint to meet qaiyuum, ariff and doan
- had a dinner with them at seoul garden

this is d pic that was taken by ME and MYSELF :

PEOPLE SO FAST CHANGE

currently in skool library doing wrk. yeay tdy is my 4t2 gathering.. wuuhuu.. cant wait..

hmm that's all i cn say.. ntg much here..

yesterday
stay at hme till evening.. after perform my maghrib prayers, dress-up and went to my cousin's wedding preparation.. reach wdland ard 8+ ?? forget ready mah haha.. lepak there, eat, drink, daydreaming till 10pm..took 169 frm that bus stop to another bus stop nearby my hse.. perform isyak prayers and say HELLO TO DREAM LAND. :)

tdy
is my cousin big day which is his wedding day.. woke up at 10+, bathe, eat then dress-up.. ard 1+ pm we reach his wedding place, salam all my aunties and uncles, stand there like a doll for 5 mins.. tke a food and find a place to seat. sat there, ate and rest for awhile.. find a best parking to lepak as d weather was quite warm.. all of a sudden, d rains pours and it was quite pity for my cousin as of hw to walk with his beloved wife with their nice clothes..hmm..whateva it is, i enjoy myself with a joke frm my aunties, uncles and my cousins.. HAHA..
it was awesome.. *thumbs up*
waited for 20 mins ?? suddenly i heard *kpak bing bing..kpak bing bing..kpak bing bing..kpak bimg bing..* at last a couple came.. when i see d couple..OMG his wife was VERY PRETTY and SWEET :)..
"cuzzie, u chose a perfect one" :D
da di du di da la la la la la ..... cut short

at 5pm, my mom packed a left over food for my dear family to eat, tapau here tapau there HAHA.. she knw that i like to tapau so much :D.. tnx mom.. at 5.45 pm?? gather with all my cousins, aunties and uncles as my aunty (groom's mom) had a small speech and berdoa.. at 6pm, hme sweet hme..

TO MY COUSIN :
SELAMAT PENGANTIN BARU ABG ASRI DAN KAK HAJAR. SEMOGA BERKEKALAN HINGGA KE AKHIR HAYAT

congratz to both of u.. hpefully ur marriage will last forever and had a great, cute kids :)

ok readers..
till here then
will update again :)

toodles

seriously i say why am i SO stupid fall in love with that guy which he exactly dont have any feelings towards me??
why am i sooo stupid ??
why am i soo damn stupid ??

- cry
- no mood
just bcs of who?? BCS OF HIM

waste my tears and time just bcs of that silly things.. omg..
luckily i realized b4 its too late..

alhamdulilah and thank god for awaked me up and realized the true fact..
i had read of what i just read and it realize me of smethg which mkes me more confident abt my decision and this will change me to be a better person and better life.. thanks to d owner of that blog.. u hve a woman power.. YEAH..i support u..

guess what ??

I HAD SUCCESSFULLY FORGET HIM !!! YAHUUUU.. I AM SOOO HAPPY

i prefer this life LOL.

no pain, heartbroken, stress and depressed.. i cn use this precious time with someone who i loved so much and tke cre of me since i was a baby. nearly 19 yrs they took care of me, feed me and pour with a lots of love, care and concern.. thanks to my beloved parents and sister who helped me all this while, give motivation, advice when i am feel down.. LOVE U ALOT..MUACKZ

i just wanna express myself HAHA!!

ok readers

till here then

toodles :)

yesterday went to lavendar to meet yumie.. accompany her to do her changing of pic.. after that meet radin at bugis..ate lunch at BK after that went to bugis street (forget d name), then iluma bugis after that bugis junction till 6.30pm.. yumie and i went hme together as for radin, she met her friend.. so sad that i went hme alone but nvm understandable. reach ys ard 7.10 i think and met my sis at ys. went hme together and ate ice-cream. reach doorstep, went to my aunt hse to send muffin..after that hme sweet hme..

yesterday

1 whole day in skool..

10 mins late for my exam.. i was like WTH!

seriously if that apek let us to board the bus, i would not late sia.. aiyo..testing my patient.. reach skool, i straight away ran as fast as i could..woah damn tired sia.. after exam, HIP HIP HOORAY..HIP HIP HOORAY.. EXAM IS OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WUUUUUUUUUUHUUUU..

kk stop that bloody crap hahakz.. continue....

after exam, accompany yumie to eat at cafe 1 and then went to d library to do my job.

i was totally shocked that i did my duty frm 10+ till 8.10pm.. hardwrkg girl mah.. haha

reach to tamp wait for another bus as d queue was very damn long n suddenly i saw my old mates.. her name is nurkhenah.. is her name correct ?? sorie for that.. we talk, chit chat.. long story man.. board the bus, sleep lor.. very tired..

reach ys we go separate ways and then hme sweet hme..

okae readers..

tooddles.. :)

tdy is wed and just nw at 11pm i sat IAC EXAM..
oh my god.. d paper was damn tough and i was so gundu that d first qns i done was totally wrong..
alamak.. i waste 45 mins on that and end up, i did a mistake.. luckily i realised that i made a mistake. tnk god.. i need to re-do again and at that time, i was like giving up but i told myself that 'do not gve up.. u cn do it' so i try to keep it calm and hold my tears.. felt like wanna cry bcs i took an hour to complete d qns.. left 3 more to go and remaining time was abt 2 n half hour ?? thinking i couldnt make it but in d end, i am able to finish it even though i knw my ans is wrong.. nt enough time to do correction and check d ans..
nw its time for me to pray n hope i pass d exam..

YEAY TMRW IS MY LAST PAPER THEN ENJOY !!! WUUUHUUU.. CANT WAIT.. cn rest my mind..

nw i realised he totally change and i think d old him is not exist anymore.
kluh wateva it is, i am happy with my own life..

frm now onwards, i try my best to build my own life with skool, family and frenz..
i just had enough with all d nonsense, d pain that i felt and cries just bcs of this crap. d pain makes my life ruin and it was a disaster and i waste a lot of tears. i was almost gve up in anythg that i love to do.. that time i was totally stupid. nw i realized that i fail in love..i gve up with d love crap thing and i want to start a new life without loving someone special.. treat everybody as a fren.. i knw its very hard to forget smeone special n i knw that slowly i cn forget him..

i want my old me bck.. really miss her a lot..

tdy is Monday and i just sat my Writing For Business (WFB) subj.. hmm overall d exam is 50:50..

d paper starts at 8.30
reach skool 8.30 sharp
reach to d indoor sports hall 8.33..
i and radin ran to d staircase..
first time i late for my major exam..
haiz.. nvm is okae..at least i am able to do d exam..

wed and thurs is my exam..
after that "STRESS GONE"
yahuuuu :)
cant wait for that moment..

updates..

yesterday meet radin and mas to amk library to study for exam.. study till 2.30pm and went for lunch at banquet.. after that we walk2 for awhile then went to amk library again to continue our study.. i study iac, radin study sve as for mas, she studied bfs. study till 6pm, then we went hme in a separate way. mas took train while i and radin took bus to ys.

reach ys, we went to the pasar malam nearby and we bought TAKOYAKI.. wuuuhuuu.. find a place to seat and ate takoyaki.. after ate, lepak for awhile.. radin wanna buy drinks so i accompany her. suddenly......

i saw rahmat and brian lepak under one of d block. i was totally shocked and speechless.. my heart stops for awhile and i cn feel d pain.. ouch!.. suprised and did not expect mah.. luckily it stops for awhile.. if not, i say gdbye to all.. as radin went buy drinks near to where i saw them lepak, i sat there for awhile and talk to them.. long time no see mah.. thinking wanna talk more but at that time it was late night so i decided to go hme.. after accompany her to d bus stop till bus came, i went hme straight.. it was soo tired..

HAHA okae then..till here..
wanna study for my WFB exam.. tmrw my exam start man.. oh gosh..

hie readers..
okae let see..
updates for tdy

currently in d skool library online for awhile after that study lor..if lazy do library thing..if too lazy then go hme lor..

yesterday i felt glad that radin was so happy that she received a thing that i created..
HAHA!! ok haiz..

thats all i wanna say..

toodles :)

currently in MLC online for awhile..after that go makan at Cafeteria 2..after that go library to study for a short while..

haiz i thought tdy i cn go bck with radin and end up i go bck on my own. so sad.. i thought aftr skool, went bck hme together and gve her smethg that i hope she likes it but in d end my thought was not fulfilled.. haiz nvm what to do.. she wanna meet her old frenz so is okae..understandable..i knew she miss her old frenz HAHA..no worrie. its okae.. there will be another day..in fact everyday wkday i see her..LOL

hmm d time passed very fast and nxt wk is my EXAM.. WOW..

ok lor..till here is my updates..
will update again
toodles :)

gd morning bloggie

currently at hme nw waiting for the time strike 745 am.. shocking news is there's no lecture for us. actually there is but no attendance taking and IT IS SELF-REVISION.. while waiting, blog for awhile and see any updates for 4t2 outing and study at the same time...

kluh wateva anw..
d days that is past
let it be passed
and
just forget abt it..
look forward and continue my journey.
DONT EVER EVER EVER REGRET..
there are so many things that i cn do and achieve it..
caiyo :)

nxt wk is my MAAJJOOR EXXAMM !!
WOOOOHOOOO
SO FAST MAN

i just cant believe it with my own eyes..